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music i listened to over break

1.19.2026

GIRLS LIKE US ARE ROTTEN TO THE CORE!

the great
wallsocket - underscores
GOD this album rocks. i've always loved underscores' music on a very surface level "ooh this single is good" but have ashamedly never fully listened to wallsocket the entire way through and i'm shocked i didn't get to it earlier! someone said that wallsocket was like a modern american novel and yeah i completely agree. faves include locals, johnny johnny johnny, geez louise, seventyseven, uncanny long arms... who am i kidding, that's half the album.

where's my phone - mitski
MITSKI IS BACK YESSS YESSS YESSSSS HAHAHAHAHAHAHHA. this album will be going triple platinum in my earbuds this year. gonna be my willoughby tucker of 2026. im obsessed already... the explicit haunting of hill house reference in the voicemail OHHHH ITS OVER ITS OVER

the good
ghostholding - jane remover
finally getting into jane's discography after 5 million years

tiger's blood - waxahatchee

evangelic girl is a gun - yeule

sable, fable - bon iver

fishmonger - underscores
hmmm i've never liked this one as much as wallsocket. still good but wallsocket just blows it out of the water

various 6+ minute lucy dacus ballads
self explanatory. only exception has been troublemaker doppelganger

ants from up there - bcnr
somehow i didnt realize that they were english until i listened to the live at bush hall recording.

fancy that, fancy some more? - pinkpantheress

the ??????


coworker* fanart

12.17.2025

im sorry if i drew you chopped

*really just means things ive drawn of people irl. but that title is too long. mostly alice stuff but theres also smhs hadestown from...april?

alice by heart cast


smhs hadestown cast


my favorite software

12.5.2025

MY SOFTWARE #MYSOFTWARE
yt-dlp
really great youtube downloader

aegisub
ive used this like once but its really good. the subtitlerrrrr

kitty
terminal emulator! love the themes on this

vlc media player
VLC IS MY GOAT I DONT KNOW WHAT I WOULD EVER DO WITHOUT VLC I LOVE VLC

thorium reader
good for opening epubs!

paint tool sai
my art program of choice! nice and lightweight :]

calibre
a lifesaver for ebook management,, i edit metadata with this before i send my epubs to my kindle

makemkv
i use this when ripping dvds!

filecentipede
used to use this download manager, i dont anymore but it was p useful when i did

bookletcreator
extremely limited when you dont pay for it, but useful for small zine formatting

windows media player legacy
....i'm not gonna lie i have zero clue how i got this on my computer. really great though?? good for my burning cd purposes

qbit
qbit :]

zotero
my citation GOAT


things i have done since starting break

11.25.2025

instead of writing my two week overdue essay and other term paper

attempt to equalize + track a recording (fail)
watch wicked act ii

make alice subtitles for no reason (save me)
go to evil high school to say hi to my friend who is almost free and sit in his class where we listened to 15 straight minutes of turkey gobbling noises from youtube
inform compsci majors at ocf retreat that the car crash sex movie mentioned in the scott pilgrim anime is real and its by david cronenberg. and released in 1996.
eat a chicken pot pie
get a score of 40 on the performative purity test
get impersonated by a scam bot on instagram

read manga-ified the scarlet letter featuring twinky dimmesdale

places i buy from online

11.24.2025

conceptualizing "felixcore" via online storefront

secondhand/overstock

closetchild
this is where i get most of the clothes i use on the daily, although i havent bought anything since the tarriffs... most here looks very expensive, but if you really look you can get some great deals- like a typically 6k yen shirt offered for 800. i may make a blog post solely for closetchild/buying lolita-adjacent clothing and brand advice...

hamilton book
i'm fairly certain this site sells overstock; great deals on books and dvds. and i did actually get them in the mail in the end so it isn't fake!.
surugaya
amazing free international shipping deals. good for cheaper secondhand merch, extremely cheap dvds (especially of american tv shows), and curious doujinshi finds. (great way to spend the afternoon is to look up classics titles in katakana and see what pops up). most of my enstars/prsk merch comes from here!
ebay
sounds obvious, but i am an ebay WARRIOR. best practices here include mispelling names of common expensive brands to get random people clearing out their closets for cheap.
taka-an
outside of surugaya and like, buying stuff from fans on tumblr, probably the cheapest place for (esp. old) takarazuka merch.
wakak
allegedly very good for cheap sewing supplies. plan to buy from this one...at some point...

artists i love to shove money at

tshirt zines
can also be found on longposter.neocities! my favorite bi-annual yaoi zine. full of essays i like reading.
milkiteastudios
drew the kaveh sticker sheet i have on the back of my sketchbook! gorgeous style! love!
driedmangoenjoyer
ahhh amazing style amazing everything. ran into this artist at the mlk student union?! so lovely!
urkuri
i haven't actually bought from this artist yet but will when i get more money and pay off my debts to my friends!!! literally my fave iwtv/succession artist on the earth!!! roman armand girls (gn) forever!!!
naroym
i literally treasure the one sticker sheet i bought from this artist like once at an artist alley. NAROYM! OPEN YOUR STOREFRONT AGAIN AND MY LIFE IS YOURS!!!!
ethel cain
Ethel Cain Shopify

"merch" that i own

11.24.2025

because 90% of offical merch is ugly and im supposed to not engage in excessive consumerism
succession: the scriptbooks of season 1 and 2

this is probably a bad example because it is actual merch that i bought from an overstock store with a 15$ giftcard from a survey i took for uc davis but i love them. i love my succession scripts. my next goal is to get roman's colorblock walmart shirt from the finale ep.
panic! at the disco: a hoodie from the same brand as the shared wentzross hoodie
one of my bestest friends ever found this for me at a random goodwill for 5 bucks. i wear this thing so much THANK YOU OOMFIE.
alice by heart: my friend's caterpillar gloves
supernatural: sam winchester's carhartt jacket (2025 edition)
i genuinely own this because its my winter jacket. but also its the sam jacket.
hannibal: this academic hannibal journal published by syracruse uni

my fave essays are the bedelia as final girl, author's muse, and audience surrogate one and the psychoanalysis critique one. the rest are alright.
honkai star rail: a literal stone of aventurine
if you are crazy then a copy of the waste land 1922 ts elliot and a double indeminity dvd also counts as aventurine merch. the aventurine merch for crazy people
persona 3: koss wired on ear grey headphones

internet archive: a jam jar of internet archive "preserves" (haha) and a wayback machine sticker

my favorite color codes

11.20.2025

i keep losing them
low contrast: higher contrast:

shall we go... westward ho!

11.20.2025

obligatory alice by heart post

my tech issues #mytechissues

shoegate

this one was scary but not the worst scary. alice's shoe fell apart... and on hand we had broken glue guns that wouldn't spit out glue and wood glue. so i shitty sewed the box of the shoe back but then the sole was still an issue! felt bad that day, because it was all lumpy (badly placed "hot" glue and globs of wood glue), but the issue was solved in the end the next day with fabri-tac. yay!

dressgate

this one was scarier. because of the sheer fabric, there was no real way to sew it back prettily (and the gathers?!) but it worked out in the end. but visible stitches on closing night,,, eek

lightgate
this one was REALLY SCARY. on the 11.15 show i think, the lights randomly turned off during preshow and this was AFTER two of our eight mics went down too so everyone's already stressed and then the lights are down too?? not sure how this fixed itself but there were no issues after. just scary.

micgate
literally not even my issue but this one was STRESSFUL. im shaking my head as i write this currently just thinking about it. initially i had around five mic changes on my hands, which was scary because i .. had not ever touched a mic before. but it was fine! and then we went from an 8 mic plot for the 11 person cast where everyone sings to a 6 mic plot (changes upped to 6 now...) to 5 by closing (kind of better?! had only 2 changes this run). Ok.

flamingo-tea-party-gate
this is when my lack of exercise and stick arms really killed me because tell me why pushing wood blocks through curtains was that hard. sequence of ALARM cot three blocks raiser now follow me, i followed you TRANSITION. EEK.

curtaingate

evil curtain. evil curtain. ts pmo

tablegate

least scary issue by the time my goat elizabeth had fixed them. but was concerning earlier... the legs were too flush with the leg extensions that the angle was incredibly particular (especially after the cots had settled during runs) that the tea party transition would just never work. but they were fixed!

bustlegate
also literally not even my issue but like. burn that thing. god gives his worst tech issues to his strongest soldiers

my favorite extremely specific show moments


i'm testing out formatting here

11.20.2025

i once had a blog on neocities too when i was younger but it was like probably lame and bad and i don't remember it

words words words testing testing. i dont want to make a seperate page for each blog because that sounds like a pain in the butt. whats in my pockets today?